Entries in Homeland Security (7)

Sunday
Sep112005

9/11 Four Years Later


It’s 9/11 again, and I can't help but feel really really sad. Sometimes I look through the photos that I collected from various places. Even now… four years later.. it’s really hard to think about that day. If I could say there was something good that came from all the bad of that day then it would be that 9/11 drove me to move to Fair Lawn, NJ. That then led me to date outside of the NYC area which brought me to Amy who is now my wife of three weeks. I also bought a house back in June which is something I would have never done if I stayed in NYC.

Today Amy had to go to a bridal shower so I’m just sitting at home, mowing the lawn, and trying not to be all bummed about what day it is. I guess though for those in the south this past week or so has been horrible this year. They have their own version of 9/11 except the sad thing is that George W. Bush brought this on them. His spending on his moronic war took away from costal defence both in dollars and in people that are over in Iraq. He’s such a putz. So anyway… while you throw money at the Red Cross because FEMA is unable to help the taxpayers of the south, remember that FEMA is failing the helpless animals down there too. North Shore Animal League has been one of the organizations that has stepped in to help. Rather than donating to the Red Cross I have decided to give to NSAL because I think it’s sad how FEMA and the Red Cross simply abandoned the animal population down there. Some would say that I’m crazy and that people come first. To those people I would say that the dogs and cats didn’t ask to live there. They didn’t ask to be left locked in apartments.. unable to run away… left to die. The people chose to live there. Many of them chose to stay through the storm. Some of them chose to loot. So if you are going to donate you should think about the cats, dogs, rabbits, hampsters, and more that never asked to be left behind… that the Federal Government refused to allow on evacuation buses… remember them.

Thursday
Sep112003

A letter from New York to America

September 11, 2001
A letter from New York to America.
Author Unknown

Dear America,
We're feeling better now, thank you for asking.

And thank you for sending us your brave rescue workers, your kind donations and your sincere prayers.

We know that you feel bad for us.

But in some odd way, we feel bad for you. You weren't here to witness with your very own eyes humankind at its finest hour.

You didn't see thousands of ordinary Americans run to the disaster site clutching medical bags, grocery bags, and shovels. (Just where do we New Yorkers keep shovels in our tiny little apartments?)

You weren't here to see thousands of us line the roads and cheer rescue workers on.

Yes, we admit New York has been irreversibly changed. Don't get us wrong, the streets are still dirty, somehow the millions of tears shed here have yet to clear our sidewalks of litter. Yes, go ahead you can say it, it's okay, we are still the city that never sweeps.

But the adjectives that people have used, maybe even those that you have used to describe our city: dirty, smelly, noisy, have also been irreversibly altered. Impossible as it may seem to accept -- New York is now Holy. If you could only stand near the site of the World Trade Center, you would at once understand that it is one of the holiest places on earth, like the battlefield at Gettysburg, or the barb wired fences of Auschwitz. Our apologies to the Grand Canyon but surely God won't be found there, he is dwelling this moment above the ruins of the World Trade Center.

Maybe it is a result of all of the prayers that you have sent our way, but if you were here in the last two weeks you would realize that New Yorkers themselves have been in a state of grace. Tourists often remarked they could actually feel the energy of our city. Today you would feel the positive energy; you would feel a buzz, a life force that can only be described as basic human goodness.

It's almost as if 8 million people had decided that through sheer goodwill and compassion they could outweigh the evil wickedness of 19 of their fellow humans. (Is it too harsh to call them in-humans?)

It is a glory to behold. You must, if you can, come and be a part of it.

You've told us that we acted honorably. How could we not act with honor? We were horrified eyewitnesses as misguided souls sacrificed their lives so others would die. Then watched in awe as our police and firemen sacrificed their lives so that others might live. We take solace in the certain knowledge that our firemen are safe in heaven, while the hijackers are surely battling the flames of hell.

No doubt about it New York has changed in other ways. It's time that we admit it. We've always been a part of the American family, but for some reason or another we never quite got around to sitting down with the rest of you for a Thanksgiving dinner.

We know. We understand. We are different. Yes, we're always in a hurry. But maybe now you understand that we've always known that life is short, accomplish what you can before it's too late. Yes we are loud. But maybe now you understand that we've always known, that God is a long way off. Sometimes you have to shout to be heard.

We're aware that there exists someplace out there in America something called the Heartland. Our apologies to Iowa, but from now on when we hear the word Heartland, our thoughts will not be of rolling cornfields. Rather it will be the picture of one of our brave firemen climbing a tower to heaven. Surely you won't begrudge us that.

Through your prayers and concern you have accepted us back into the family. You will have to excuse us if we seemed confused. We are not quite sure whether on September 11th all New Yorkers became American, or all Americans became New Yorkers.

What we do know is that for years you have been sending us your sons and daughters. They came here to be a part of this grand experiment in humankind. They tell us native New Yorkers about the beauty of the Arizona desert. The simple joys of Southern hospitality. We smile and accept them as one of us. How can we not when we have a lady standing in our harbor beckoning the world to send us her children?

When you come to our city you'll see some amazing things. Yes it sounds like we're being boastful again. It's one of our faults, we'll try to work on that. But it's hard. Because if you were here you would have seen that when the smoke had cleared the tallest things standing in New York were its citizens.

We New Yorkers have always been a bit embarrassed by our Mayor when he claims New York is the Capital of the World. But there is not one of us who wouldn't plant a kiss square on his mouth, if he would only just stand still for a moment. In our city where the police were once jeered, they are now cheered. Our firemen no longer need ladders, for they already stand on pedestals 10 stories high.

Surely every American wished they could live in a community like that.

We thank you for giving us the honor of representing America. That the face of America that the world saw (in NY pronounced "sore") was that of a cop from Brooklyn, a fireman from Queens, a secretary in sneakers from Staten Island. We hope you won't be too upset that many of those faces wore Yankee caps. We're hoping that our Damn Yanks win the World Series again this year. Not because we need another Championship banner. No, what we need right now is a tickertape parade right up Broadway. In this parade our sports heroes and our citizens will line the streets and cheer for all the brave rescue workers, our true heroes. And if you, the rest of America, can't make it to our parade, at least watch it on TV. Scan the crowds and you'll see the faces of your sons and daughters, your brothers and sisters. Your fellow New Yorkers. Your fellow Americans.

In closing we should mention that one of our favorite expressions in New York has always been "fuggedaboutit." But we will never forget. We will always remember your kindness, your compassion, and your prayers.

Now if you'll excuse us, we don't won't to seem rude, but we really have to get back to work.

With sincere thanks.

New York, N.Y.

Wednesday
Sep102003

Uville

Every U down in Uville liked U.S. a lot,
But the Binch, who lived Far East of Uville, did not.
The Binch hated U.S! the whole U.S. way!
Now don't ask me why, for nobody can say,
It could be his turban was screwed on too tight.
Or the sun from the desert had beaten too bright
But I think that the most likely reason of all
May have been that his heart was two sizes too small.
But, Whatever the reason, his heart or his turban,
He stood facing Uville, the part that was urban.
"They're doing their business," he snarled from his perch.
"They're raising their families! They're going to church!
They're leading the world, and their empire is thriving,
I MUST keep the S's and U's from surviving!"
Tomorrow, he knew, all the U's and the S's,
Would put on their pants and their shirts and their dresses,
They'd go to their offices, playgrounds and schools,
And abide by their U and S values and rules,
And then they'd do something he liked least of all,
Every U down in U-ville, the tall and the small,
Would stand all united, each U and each S,
And they'd sing Uville's anthem, "God bless us! God bless!"
All around their Twin Towers of Uville, they'd stand,
and their voices would drown every sound in the land.
"I must stop that singing," Binch said with a smirk,
And he had an idea--an idea that might work!
The Binch stole some U airplanes in U morning hours,
And crashed them right into the Uville Twin Towers.
"They'll wake to disaster!" he snickered, so sour,
"And how can they sing when they can't find a tower?"
The Binch cocked his ear as they woke from their sleeping,
All set to enjoy their U-wailing and weeping,
Instead he heard something that started quite low,
And it built up quite slow, but it started to grow--
And the Binch heard the most unpredictable thing...
And he couldn't believe it--they started to sing!
He stared down at U-ville, not trusting his eyes,
What he saw was a shocking, disgusting surprise!
Every U down in U-ville, the tall and the small,
Was singing! Without any towers at all!
He HADN'T stopped U-Ville from singing! It sung!
For down deep in the hearts of the old and the young,
Those Twin Towers were standing, called Hope and called Pride,
And you can't smash the towers we hold deep inside.
So we circle the sites where our heroes did fall,
With a hand in each hand of the tall and the small,
And we mourn for our losses while knowing we'll cope,
For we still have inside that U-Pride and U-Hope.
For America means a bit more than tall towers,
It means more than wealth or political powers,
It's more than our enemies ever could guess,
So may G-d bless America! Bless us! G-d bless!

Monday
Sep082003

September 11th

As September 11th approaches I can't help but feel really really sad. Sometimes I look through my photos that I collected from various places. It never gets easier to think about that day even now that two years has past. I remember it clearly. On September 10th, 2001 I was down at AOL in Virginia having a security meeting. I drove home to New York with my co-workers, and I got to bed rather late. I woke up in the morning to my ambulance pager going off. I figured it was a normal chest pain call or such. Then I heard the dispatcher. It was chaos. (The same kind of chaos we had in the first few minutes of the Blackout of 2003.) I met up with my coordinators down on 67th Street in about a minute. From the time I got out of bed to the time I met up with them, I had no idea what had happened. Andy, one of my ambulance coordinators, said a small plane had hit the towers. As Andy and David and I drove down to the WTC we were getting ready mentally for a small incident with maybe a few floors damaged and some loss of life. We parked down on Fulton Street, just east of Broadway. From there we walked to the east side of the towers. Looking up you could tell something much worse than a small plane had hit. Papers were falling everywhere, and we could see many floors blown out.

Andy, David, and I walked to West Street (the west side of the towers) to meet up with other units from my ambulance company. It was when we were over there planning to walk down to the south side of the tower when a huge chunk of the south tower flew out over West Street. We evacuated up to Chambers Street in an ambulance, and after the debris cleared out of the air we went back to help. It was dark as night when the debris was all around us. You couldn't see anything. That day I took 2 people from the towers. Both of them maintenance workers from the WTC. Most of the rest of the day was spent on the Upper East Side covering for 911 calls. I went on a few 911 runs, and that night I went back down to the towers to help out. When we were waiting in line with my ambulance to assist we got an ambulance call on the Upper East Side so I had to respond back to my district.

The rest of the week pretty much I just did ambulance calls or errands or whatever I could think to do that was helpful. I am leaving out lots of stuff from that horrible day, and that week, because it's really hard to think about. Even now. Two years later. If it weren't for the blackout a few weeks ago I would probably be doing better this year. That whole experience was so much like 9/11, but luckily the night turned in to more of a party than a bad thing. It was just the first 2 hours or so of that night that really got to me. The time when I knew something really bad had happened, but I wasn't sure what, and we didn't know how long we'd be in the dark.

I really need for 2004 to be uneventful. I just need one year to go by without some big incident, and then maybe I can not be such a flake when September rolls around. My heart goes out to all the families that lost love ones. For them every September will be a sad time. The Shapiros are one such family. Sareve Dukat was the mother of my ex-girlfriend Athena Dawn Shapiro, and her sister Lauren Rebecca Shapiro who was also a close friend of mine. I dated Athena when she lived at home with her parents. I spent a lot of time around her mother. Athena invited me to her mother's memorial service. It was hard for me, but I went because I knew it was harder for Athena and Lauren to be there. Sareve was only 53 years old. Her life was stolen from her. It makes me ill just to think about how thousands of families were affected by WTC, Pentagon, and Pennsylvania plane crashes.